Complicated mood and feel

24th June 2009, i am really never thought will happen and become this condition. I will able stop my study and find a job now if possible will out of my home and stay out side. Might this is my fate, i wish to cry, but my eyedrop or tears non-stop kind coming out. Just wish to all my friends who are reading my blog of today, i might not online as frequence as before. My last spoke to my familly, i wont care u all anymore~ and my mum last spoke leave out from this familly, even i am die also out of here. OK fine, i will try my best make you all wish possibility. My mind is empty now, i don't know what to do, and don't where to stay even what kind of job i will to be it. But i swear, i will survive with all of this difficulty. I don't want to lose~ farewell friends.

erm... weird------>.<

What a bad day for me today, in Keris there have a lecturer that we are usually call her Miss Teh. She was look like quite emotion one loh~ always easy get angry and she can make a joke after on. Today she was asking all of us read and follow from the book and one by one. After my turn, she is asking IS THAT HE (ME) IS SPEAKING AND READING AS A MASALEH..... i am just surprice she asking this kind of question and answer Miss Teh, am i sound like them ONLY. She was like get mad and said WHO said you are sound like masaleh, just have a little bit same only. erm.... she was weird totally~ wanna praise some one but on the time she was like STEP some one also~>.< i am not that mean i wanna she praise on me, just the way she is communication to me really weird, dun you feel so ?? lolx Weird lecturer or teacher i see alot, but this kind of showing off and emotional person i am just second time meet! 1st time in olympia who with name Peter~ lol~

holiday = bored ????

During assignment time, i am always hope that can get a break time(break at least few days) but during exam time or nearby Exam, i will just hope that try to stop for the examination or else just start for the holiday. And now i am during this holidays, i am like feel soulless and hollow or void of my body. Erm..... Since i am really fat a lot, also plan for jogging to keeping my self fit. So far, in this week of holiday i had never do that. I just don't know what suppose to do. I wish to go Pangkok, Jungle, any Cave.. cave... erm... also hope can join any pastry or cookery classes. At least it will help me to SPENT my time. Actually im a person that like to be bored, i think consider as usual or use to be bored. So unexpected that i am nott weird any more, i felt that boring at home and wish can get something to do, something that are meaningful and helpfull too. I wish to travel, but no money >.<, so what should i do, now are left two more weeks, even i am asking for part time also can not get those job so sudden. haiz...... so bad ....... i dun like holiday any more ! T.T

What a Angry DAY....>.<

Sorry for i am Lazy to blogging ya. Haiz, after i went to.... erm... consider transfer to Keris College, my colorful life turning to dark ~ now going to Black some more. It was definitely to making me angry in this afternoon, am i childish or am i lowing EQ. I don't know at all, so i need you all help Fiona, Judee and Patricia. Try to tell me the true and let me change my bad habit. So, let start my story, yesterday nite ~ a Keris College student who added me in his msn. It is ok for me ~ than he is a gay. Still acceptale for me, but after we are chatting and knew that he is a PLAY BOY. Still ok for me u know... but honest i am telling him that i am dislike play boy as my friend. I told him i will Feel GELI. Then he said that i am so action in talking(typing in msn) the way i am. Ok, fine! I am trying to controling my temper, but honestly if he is not from Keris College i swear that been block + delete him damn million years ago. I have not to do that jus because of he and i are from Keris College now, Surely will meet up or see each other one day. So, i jus trying to prevent the bad condition happen (face kacau kacau or in cantonese is min zo zo). Soon, im Started to humber to him, i mean the way im chating, jus let him scold also smile with it. WHO KNOW, HE SAID IM WASTED HIS TIME AND FOOLING HIM. It was definitely BULL SHIT you know, how i am wastes his time right, some more how can i fooling him? Did you all feel that i am fooling him too ?? Then, he said im like wanna all people knew he is chating with me. Oh my god, i want all people knew for what, if you are a Jesus that might be let my friends know i think. He was like 'gek sei' me in this afternoon~ haiz~ i have to cut my hair now lah, olympia lovely frenz and pls comment bout me ok~ thx ya !! miss u all~

Avène

Last week, one of my friend introduce a facial wash for me. It with name Avène from France Paris. The name of Avène is from a village with name Avène. This products for specialist for sensitive skin and it is really get a lot of great feedback and results. Let me simply brief out history about Avène, It all began in 1736...The therapeutic use of Avène Thermal Spring Water goes back a long way, and for more than 250 years, Avène Thermal Spring Water has been recognized for its soothing and softening properties on Sensitive Skin.The curative powers of the water were discovered by chance when horse afflicted with severe skin rashes was cured after drinking and bathing in the water. The fame of the water from Avène spread for beyond the borders of France: Avène Thermal Spring Water was successfully used in treatment of severe burns after the Great Fire of Chicago in 1871. This healing water comes from Avène-les Bains (The Avène Baths) thermal spring in southern France, Which Has been declared to be of public benefit in the dermatology since 1874.Avène Thermal Spring Water takes in vital minerals and trace elements as it filters through the rocks of the River Orb Valley. After a subterranean journey lasting over 40 years, the water emerges at the spring, rich in soothing and softening properties. Its well-established properties, make Avène Thermal Spring Water the ideal care for sensitive skin. (The virtues of Avène Thermal Spring Water were discovered by chance and their properties remained a mystery for many years. Even today, its many qualities still contain secrets that yet to be revealed. ( i dono how 2 post pic ar.....)

What a fantastic day today!!

At olympia there, always can feel the pressure giving by our lecturer or examination. Then, after i go to Keris, i though local College, with local Certificate, sure learn local stuff isn't it? HAHA, but it is actually no, i found few of their lecturer also quite knowledgable, can compare with Mis Nurainie too. I like the way Mis Nurainie speaking and also they way she transfer her knowledge to us. This kind of skill that i cant found from Keris College ya!! Today, i found that a lot of pronunciation of F&B term that Mis Nurainie can't pronounce well, example like 'ambience' we read as 'm b en' and the real pronunciation is 'm b on' that is Mr. Azfar pronounce before at our front office class(1st time at M01 there) if you have atten the class also pay attention on that day. Except about that, i still got found a lot of other and funny pronunciation too. He is my F&B operation lecturer and he know a lot of french and italy language. It was so fun there, but i have no interesting at all. I love my friends at Olympia there, Fiona, Patricia, Judee, Kevin, Miki Yamamoto, Radin, Alfrad and Mis Nurainie Tan. Without you all, my life turning black and white again. Miss u all so much ya! muack~ Before i go, i explain why i am puting Fantastic as my title, because of the F&B lecturer very funny actually, after study 1 or 2 pages, he will started to asking question, recall out memory! Example, "what is liquor actaully" and keep said answer FAST FAST FAST. Once we answer him, he will giving us reward that a WORD 'FANTASTIC', fun right. Haha, ok lah, i have to stop here ya~ nite

Culinary Theory class ^^ (in Keris)

Culinary is mean kitchen or cook. It is study about the equipment, utensil or any small item in kitchen. Because of this is theory class, all just base on talk, talk and talk. But it is not boring at all, because of mostly 60% same as Olympia's Food studies sub. Dixon, Tong and I was proud in this sub, althought we are not fully paying attention on Mis Nurainie class before, we still can answer well in keris, almost 80%. HAHA, mis nurainie, we did it. We were study about the FOOD yesterday. The question is, why we need to cook the food. Cooking method having many type in our life, and we are saperate it into 2 classes, that is moist heat method and dry heat method. All of this also 'SUP SUP SUI' to us. But, once i get all my assignment, will stop blogging unless i finish it lah. Because im lazy mah.