Saturday, December 12, 2009
We are started attach. He is caring enough. But he did ask me for a question, erm... is that we are attach too fast and rush? i told him, No! It's not, i do to love you. No matter the condition is going to be tough, i will still be your side. I am REALLY love you. I even told him when we are argue, argue mean to something happen. If problem occur between of us, we need to solve it as well. Because we are a couple, nothing can break our relationship.
Dec 10th 2009, he was send me a message. It's mean to asking me to be friend with him. I was crying on that day, why would it going to be. He is scold me before, he said i am very hot temper and super emotion. I am just thinking, because of i am loving you and caring you only will worry until angry. Am i really love to being that, IT'S NOT. 11th Dec 2009, he came to look for me, and bring some calender to me. It's from Genting. I bring him back to my bed room and siting face to face with him. I am shock because of he is Crying in front of me. I though he is still loving me. And who know, he told me he had a new boy friend out side. I am keep asking, does him working in Genting too? he said yes. I am continue asking, how long you both been together. He answer, just few day.
I am just wonder WHY?? I with him been 5 months, and i will lose to a guy who just knew few days??? The much hurt i get after knew that. But, i am still very love you Xyven.
I can't found any point for myself to stay alive. If i choose for the 'Last Choice' and i will not be here. I do hope to donate out all my organ for others. My wallet there got a Organ Donate card, wish you all let my mum know if i am not here and respect to my idea. I love you friends. I am really love you all very much.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
实际上地说，我们之间都知道充满着无聊和欢乐~他就是说我给他吃死猫。他说什么都行，我就什么都不行加小心。这次说分开的也只不过为了一个朋友~我爱你的四年都白费了，之间的骂架和闹分手我都给你原谅，很多时候我故意把事带到身上，只为了你的那么一个笑。现在的我也不懂可以做些什么了~friends~ i am definitely don't know what to do~ i am never thought he will just because this little thing to get angry, some more wanna break with me~ am i right to leave him~ and i was like no more confidence in love jor~ all also depend on sex to be with u ~ sad
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Monday, May 4, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Friday, February 6, 2009
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
I am very happy today, although i have to leave. It is really a memorable last day in Olympia. Because of all of my buddy are giving me a good wishing. They all are always accompany me and giving they helping hand. They told me, if they have free will go to keris there and annd have lunch with me. Here can prove that, how good friends we are since only pass 2 semester. I am a noob person. Erm... consider as a innocent person i think. I love every off my friends, and treat them as good as my familly member loh. I am using my truely heart and pureness heart to treat them. That's why i can get the Believe from them. I belief, once i am out to work, i wont get any best friends or good friends anymore. As i know, in working condition, will only see 'War' in happening. My friends are calling me back now!!!! okie~ i have stop here now.... 2043!! i miss you and love u all my friends!!
Saturday, January 17, 2009
I am a perceptual and a emotion enrich person. When i was small erm... around 3 years oldi think. I am already having my own thinking and started to think what im wanna do to get completed.Just because of this case to make me under a 'bad condition'( think watever stuff always )It was hurt actually(feel from my body to my soul)and case me insomnia and start lie down on my bed at 10pm.... and it would be falling sleep at 12am and later, once im close my eyes, my brain will automatic functioning will try on remember what i had done well and failure or else to be defeated. What a nightmare for me right!! Then, when i was primary 4th my teacher always asking us to read more newspaper to get improve our Chinese(mandarine)(im in Chinese school when i was in primary school) and im still remember i am always read Guang Ming newspaper.(光明日报） Especially during every Wednesday, if im not mistaken there will add in a medic article. It was great u know, from there i was learn a lot of relaxing skill. In addition, i like to learn those stuff i think. haha.. But, all skills i learn before definitely can't help me at all, and once i close my eyes going 2 started think think and think... haiz... i read an article before, it was about dream and why a boy will get ' horny ' after wake up. It is usual actually, and why we will dreaming huh?? i believe that eveyone will dream right, but no one will ask why will it happen. haha!! So, let me explain to you all and why dreaming will happen to us. Erm... i try to use an easy way to explain lah, human same as a computer actually, when we are sleeping equal to a computer setting sleeping mode or hibernate mode. Between, a computer been set in sleep mode, but it is not off right, and it is can be still functioning like ours brain. When a human or animal is sleeping, they will turn in two way, first one is turning in real sleep mode, sleeping while brain controling our lung keep breathing in and out also keep our hearth pumping. During this condition, as i mention just now too, brain was still functioning, if before a human or animal sleep are worry so much and keep a lot of worries, it will automatic effect our brain to 'recall' what we been worry bout the worries... and our brain will draw support from our memory there. Brain consider as a super complex thing lah, in memory part also can be seperate in few part again!! So, the words A B C we remember will store in deep memory state, and what we see and read's story book only in upper memory state. It is easy forget right. So, the 3rd part of memory system is like a button once we get from a extremely stimulate, the buttom will delete all memory. Therefore, the naughty brain will depend ours mind to go through and search for the memory we are worry, at the same time it will bring out the image we been seen too. Now, is the 2nd way to sleep. It is only animal can do so. During winter time, few or less of that aniamal will eat a lot of food, and storing their glucose in their body to prevent lack of nutrien in their body. But, the way they slept now same as the human way, because of they can be in dead mode, and once they body can feel the worm from sunlight, their hearth only started pumping again!! Cool Right. haha. Okie lah, i don't know what i suppose to blog today, im just simply type and type ya... somemore the worse is out of topic already... haha... I will try on and depend on what i know, and share toagather with u all!! ^^ tired now... hoho... byebye ya !!
Friday, January 16, 2009
Because of Judee, Patricial, Fiona, Bih Tong and Dixion.
They all giving me a wonderful and memorable's memories!
No matter in entertainment, joke, play, meeting, lunch+ing,
study, or chatering to Ham Sap topic, they will only very
welcoming me to join with and share togather. But, once
my frenz"bih tong" mention about Keris, my soul like giving
something to break it. Why i will say so? The most important thing
is 'finance' problem. I am really hate to heard my dad and mum talk in phone
with quarer kind. Anything also realated to $$$$ and because of it
to make them in 'Cold War' condition. All of the topic my parents discuss
sure because of my study fees. Or else, ask my mum dun spents so much
try to save so!!! As our economic knowledge~ can we still save money in this nowaday!The answer is IMPOSSIBLE ok!! That is why im look forKeris college. Regardless of facilities, equipments, lecturers, class room, gym room and so so so on! Just
anything also better in Olympia College! Except the very caring
and knowledgeble lecturer 'Miss Nurainie Tan'. i do not wish to go
just because of i hv no choice and don't wanna giving any shoulder
to my parents. I am definitely can not using any desscriptive adjective to descrip
myself. I am really empty in my brain and thinkless now!
What conclusion i might to do and should do~